It’s currently 347am… I’ve been up for a few hours now.

I could have really used a good night’s sleep. I’ve been having trouble falling asleep, staying asleep. Or both. There is the occasional kind night where I’m tired enough that no amount of wake ups keep me up.

Last night I finally fell asleep between 230am and 3am…. thanks anxiety.

Tonight I was tired and fell asleep relatively fast. It was one of those nights I would have likely stayed asleep too.

My little guy has been having trouble tonight. We are currently sitting in a recliner in my living room after I walked around the house with him until he was soothed back to sleep. I obviously don’t know what’s going on inside his head… but if I had to take a guess he’s having some pretty intense dreams.

Both my daughters had night terrors…. they are absolutely horrible. With my older daughter I had no clue what was going on and it was so scary. After I knew what was going on it was still scary but I at least understood the situation.

Tonight has not had the intensity I have seem in my daughters but some of the same characteristics. Lots of movement..talking. crying. Wanting.to be soothed but only in specific ways.

For a bit he wanted to be rocked the way you rock a newborn…which is much more awkward now that he is so tall.

I finally had him back down… then I was awake..I may have made some skin care purchases on Amazon… not sure how a facial steamer or pore cleaner will.help the situation… but oddly enough I felt relaxed enough after to fall asleep. Maybe the simple act of doing something for myself relaxed me.

As I started to settle in my bed…I could hear feet. I’m pretty good at guessing which kid is up based on the sound their walking makes.. my daughter is a louder foot step while my son is lighter quicker steps. Knock Knock on the door… daughter can’t sleep…stuffy runny nose. I got her set up and sure enough she is out cold again.

Once I knew she was settled it was time to try to sleep again…and then another round of baby being up. This episode was more intense..more yelling and wanting to fight you while wanting to be held by you… always a fun combination.

It’s now 4am. At this point, I am unsure if I should make another attempt at sleep. My mind is in full gear but my body is tired. I’m actually writing this in hopes it will use up whatever energy is in my mind and let me sleep. I should get the kids up early tomorrow to practice for school but they have colds and I think I’m going to just let them sleep. I am so fortunate to not need to be anywhere until 930am tomorrow so in theory I stand a chance to recover from the few hours of lost sleep from tonight.

I guess the only way to know is to try. So I will wrap this up. I am hoping that my little one stays settled. If not I guess there is always coffee.

Good night.