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You know …. weight doesn’t come on overnight… so why is it that you make changes for a single day and you hope to see 10 pounds gone in the first 24 hours???

Especially when you set the goal to just feel better and break your addiction versus losing weight?

Or does this want reveal the truth….that while yes you want to feel better and not be addicted to sugar…. you also really really want to lose weight?

I think im the end the truth is always revealed.

I think my truth is it’s both. If I was thin and felt like I do I would still be unhappy. But I would really like to get this weight off.

It’s just shy of 330pm.

Today has been harder.

I am not a medical professional so I don’t know why.

I started the day ok. Had my coffee right away because I had PT at 9am

I managed to get everyone out the door. Preschooler dropped off and to PT almost on time. I was worked hard today.. my muscles felt it.

After I did pt I ran over to the grocery store. Everything looked good… like really good. I hadn’t eaten and I’m now restricted so somehow things are more appealing.

My baby was awake…fortunately happy but awake which meant cooking when I got in would be harder. I swung by the frozen section of the store. The frugal part of me hated to spend more on a convince item than home made but I am trying to learn that my sanity has value too and spending more at the store for a lunch I could reasonably prepare was better than a drive thru or no lunch at all.

When I checked the package I realized there was more sugar in it than I realized. There were 5 servings and not as much food as the bag made me think…. but whatever. I bought it I was going to eat it.


I’m now trying to finish this at almost 8pm…. this is exactly why I’m giving myself grace. My life is busy.

But I’m pleased to say that as of 750pm I have made it. Well maybe. I drank some kombucha today. Yes it has added sugar but I know some sugars get eaten during fermentation…so who knows maybe I screwed up maybe I didn’t but I didn’t go to Starbucks for a sugar free coffee so that counts for something I hope.

Around 2 I started to struggle. I was really hungry. I just generally didn’t feel well. I started to get a headache and I think I overdid the selzter because my stomach burned.

215pm and the kids came home from school. I spent time in the sun and fresh air talking to a woman from the bus stop. It is amazing how much that helped.

4pm I went to an appointment for my oldest and didn’t debate stopping for anything which was really nice.

My kids played outside until the light was almost gone. They were absolutely filthy.

Dinner ended up late due to unplanned showers.

I made some boxed mac and cheese and ate a few bites. I choose fun over a fancy dinner tonight. Their diet as a whole is very balanced so Mac and cheese is ok sometimes.

I had a really yummy dinner. I took 3 pieces of provolone cheese topped with Italian deli meat then put a baby dill pickle on the center and ate almost like a taco. I should have taken a picture but I was so hungry I thought about it after.

I learned today that Bananas with peanut butter and sea salt are amazing… don’t knock it until you try it. I also learned strawberries are incredible when you can appreciate them because you haven’t had so much sugar you can’t taste the sweet.

Late night munching has always been a problem for me…. but fortunately I’m so tired I’ll probably pass out as soon as the kids do 🙂

Almost bedtime…. day 2 is almost in the books.