I am currently sitting in the waiting room of my littlest loves therapy office..eating one of the worst meals I’ve ever prepped myself. It was 10am and I had barely managed to drink my coffee. I am thankful recent illness turned me into an iced coffee only kinda girl because it’s easier to keep my… Continue reading My current reality
I’m starting to think that I owe myself an apology. As I’ve stated before I’m back in therapy. A little while back while trying to unpack some stuff and get a better idea of my motivation in life I was given a simple but profound assignment. My assignment was to list out times in my… Continue reading To Myself
When I was 34… I declared that 36 was going to be my year. I thought then that by 36 I’d have myself figured out. Last weekend marked the half way point of my 36th trip around the sun. And if I’m being honest with myself….I can’t tell you if it will go down in… Continue reading 36
Another Holiday without you. This one was a first. I haven’t seen you except for a couples of funerals in 4 years. We have barely spoken. On major days you would text. I never knew how to feel. Glad you reached out or sad that the scab was opened again. This year you said nothing.… Continue reading Another holiday
* talking about mental health including panic attacks. If this subject is hard for you my heart goes out to you. Please stop reading now * To fight or give in….that really seems to be the question. I’ve been fighting off a panic attack the better part of my day. For some reason tonight I’m… Continue reading To fight or give in
Anyone else ever watch one of good Day in a Life videos or mini vlogs? Yeah me too. So many of them seem so scripted and planned. Planned days are fine. I try to plan my days… the non negotiable at least, like appointments and feeding the kids. Planned perfection… no not so much. These… Continue reading How About A Realistic Day In The Life?
June 19th 2019 was the last night I went to bed feeling whole. The following day was my 3 year old birthday… the weather wasn’t supposed to be great but we planned a fun outing to our favorite indoor bounce place. The day had been going so well. Fast forward to the afternoon. By the… Continue reading June 2019
I guess I wasn’t actually over it . Any of it. Last week I went back to therapy and it let me with lots of feelings. I had rehersed my summary over and over again before going. Which part was I going to start with? All of it? Some of it? Right now? 20 years… Continue reading I guess I wasn’t over it
Last week I wrote about my season of life. And I used an example of a short workout video that I tried to do. One week later… it reminds unfinished. I have not completed even another second of it. The following day my kids were home due to a storm. My husband was home working… Continue reading Update to my season of life
Season of life…it’s what I’m now saying to myself whenever I feel frustrated or sad or really anything about what I am and am not able to do right now. I am trying to examine where my frustration comes from. The fact women where told we could have everything all at once and enjoy it… Continue reading My Season of Life
The Tales of a Modern Housewife 