I’m done with diets.

I’m done over analyzing what I eat.

I’m not interested anymore in thinking any calories or macros or deficits.

My body is in need of a lot of healing.

Healing requires energy.

Originally I was going to eat a salad daily. Or maybe only do this…. or a smoothie.

I think for now I’m done.

I am limiting wheat because my immunologist told me a lot of pain patients have some meaning relief eliminating dairy and wheat. I’m working on wheat because it’s much easier for me. I’m not being a perfectionist about it either. I’ve been making small changes here and there. I have a tendency to be all or nothing…which leads me to ultimately do nothing. Yesterday my husband grilled and I ate my food bunless. Today he’s picking up something because the day has been busy and I’m probably going to eat the bun.

I’m working on thinking less about what I can’t eat and more what I can. Food seems so different when you view it through the lenses of restriction. When you view it as what I can eat… you view through the lenses of abundance.

A bunless burger may sound boring…but when you think of a burger topped with mushrooms and onions and blue cheese… the bun is no longer a requirement for a yummy meal.

Fried eggs on their own may not sound appealing but eggs with avocado and leftover burger toppings… you get the point.

I am getting to a point where certain things are naturally becoming unappealing. I love all things lemon normally. We got a lemon donut from the local shop …and one bite was way too much for me…. so I ate no more. My taste buds have been changing and I’m allowing them to do so. My new rule is sugary or junk food is allowed to be wasted. That has been a huge shift for me as before I would feel badly for wasting anything considered food.

As time goes on I will probably make more meaningful changes. However my focus now is to heal my very damaged relationship with food… and I’m hoping through healing that changes like improved pain and weight loss will occur naturally. However my only goal is to few better.