254.0

Ughhhh………….

Maybe I shouldn’t weigh myself every day.

Or maybe I should…because this helped me see just how sensitive my system is to changes.

I don’t know…right now I feel discouraged but I’m trying not to give up already.

I got home from dropping off my daughter from preschool and ate some yogurt with strawberries and peanut butter. I did this because my 8 month old was up . I honestly don’t understand how some people do cold breakfast…. it was good but for some reason I need hot food. I have always been like this. I was also still hungry and the yogurt probably had far too much sugar… I didn’t check.

After my husband’s work call was over I ended up cooking some food..it was a repeat of yesterday. Over easy eggs, avocado, and grilled sourdough bread . I added more lf those candy like tomatoes on the side and lots of salt and pepper.

That kind of was brunch because I didn’t eat again after that.

My stomach still hurts horribly. Enough that I may call the Dr tomorrow incase it takes a little bit to get an appointment. At least once a day I eat and it feels like I have a brick in my stomach….. and far far too much burning.

I’m trying to drink lots of plain water to help dilute it if it’s a stomach acid problem.

Afternoon coffee went sideways. We are trying to experiment and the cold brew we made was just too strong tasting. Going to keep playing around. I know that this is easily a sugar bomb .

I feel …. a lot of mixed feelings. I’m both encouraged and discouraged. I was hoping to be doing better by now… but I can’t ignore how far I’ve come. There are 2 cupcakes sitting on the counter still…. and unless someone eats them they will stay there until I toss them. I didn’t do the we I screwed up so let me really screw up thing. I messed up a little and tried to go right back to the right thing.

Yesterday my pain flared so I know I need to be on top of this….. I also really need to call the rheumatologist. I don’t know why I’m putting it off….