It’s been awhile….too long.

It has been one year to the day since I have written anything here. I guess there was a reason I felt compelled to open up the WordPress app vs mindlessly scrolling while my house is quiet.

My writing is therapeutic to me. I share fairly openly and honestly…. my soul feels lighter once my thoughts are put out into the world. I also feel like by sharing openly it can help others to feel less alone. I know personally reading honest posts have always inspired me than posts about unrealistic chore charts and fitness routines.

In another life maybe I would have been a writer. I love to write. Maybe in this lifetime I will. I am not a refined writer, I’m sure my Grammer is far from perfect and my thoughts not always well organized, but I still enjoy it.

I am not completely sure why I stopped writing. I started this blog years ago before my life took a hard left turn. I wanted to share my thoughts and feelings. However I was hesitant because some of the things I wanted to write about may be read by people who triggered the hurt…who for some reason I still felt some urge to protect…despite the fact that they clearly were not interested in protecting me..I actually started a new blog..which I may at some point use again for deeper feelings on life…or maybe someday I will grow enough to share how I feel without worrying about who reads it. Maybe someday.

My story has had some interesting plot twists over the last three years, and especially the past year. So many times as I’m processing things I think about writing…and yet I have not. Almost as if my writing muscle was paralyzed… like I had lost my voice.

Looking through my old posts I realized just how much writing has meant to me…. even if no one ever reads these posts… they are my outlet…. my diary. I have so many thoughts swirling around my head all the time. Lately they have gotten so loud I can barely hear myself think. I need some quiet…. so I am back….giving my thoughts a voice…so that maybe I can give myself some peace.

I do not know how much I will write…what I will write about…. will it be deep or just sharing a receipe once I eventually start to create more again… but just simply writing this blog post feels like I have opened up the pathway needed to write anything again.

It feels good to be back.