Day 4 went better then day 3… and I can thank coffee for that. I couldn’t do it. I’ve done it before, and I could do it if I had to…. but I really couldn’t think of any reason you do it. I love my coffee sweet. I have been using stevia, but was struggling to get it the way I wanted it to taste without creamer or sugar. I was doing tea with stevia, but then I read stevia maybe could cause problems . So I stopped it for about 9 or 10 days. I lost weight quickly that week, but I also totally stuck to the plan. No cheats, and used measuring spoons/cups for everything. I decided to let myself have some coffee while sticking to the plan. I’m trying to follow a lower carb/keto diet while I work on developing a healthier relationship with food. Stevia is totally allowed so it’s on plan. I’ll just have to see. I’m hoping it’s fine, as long as I’m losing I’ll be happy. If I don’t I’ll let the coffee go again, I’ll see how the week goes.

I felt so much happier after my coffee. I got more done, I felt more productive. It’s been part of my morning routine for so long I think it just signals my brain to wake up and work.

We were having our 3rd Norester in 2 weeks. The wind was terrible, and it was cold. My spin bike is currently in my garage… not exactly a warm place during a snow storm. However I wanted to exercise and it’s my favorite (and most hated ) form of cardio. I threw on a sweatshirt and warm socks and headed down to the garage after lunch while my husband hung out with a kids. It was so cold, for under 10 minutes. It wasn’t long before I had to take it off. I love that spin bike, I also really hate it. I was joking after with.my husband that I go threw a range of emotions . At first I’m excited to get on, then I’m in denial about how much it sucks, then I’m a combination of angry at the bike and myself for allowing myself to get so put of shape. Then I think I hit acceptance that it’s going to just suck until the timer goes off. When I got off of the bike I felt relieved, it’s the only way I can put it. I usually have to just stand there for a few minutes while my legs stop feeling like jello. I’m always amazed how good I feel once my legs return to normal. A hot shower seems to be key to my recovery after. I even felt good enough to play with some eye make up after even though I was just going to be home.

My afternoon was not the most productive but enjoyable. I watched my cousins live video on Facebook about eye make up, my littles watched with me. They love watching her videos. I think it’s because they know her. My little guy took an awfully late nap . While he was asleep I watched videos about the keto diet. I love research and information. I find it comforting.

My evening was spent hanging it my with my family and hoping the power stayed on.

I am still early into my 30 days but I’m already noticing a difference. I think adding myself to my to do list makes me feel good even if it’s nothing too big. It gives me permission to care for me.